When Tomorrow Starts Without Me

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see,

If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me,

I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand.
And said my place was ready in Heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind, all those things I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, so much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you, and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized, that could never be,
For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through Heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, from his great golden throne.
He said, "This is eternity, and all I've promised you.
Today your life on Earth is past, and here it starts anew".
"I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,
And since each day's the same day, there's no longing for the past".
"But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true,
Though there were times you did some things, you know you shouldn't do".
"But you have been forgiven, and now at last you're free,
So won't you take my hand now and share My life with Me".
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me, I'm right here in your heart.

This is for my best friend whom I lost in Aug of 2001, My Mom.

My Son

My son, Justin, is so amazing.  At the age of 19 he surprises me everyday with his maturity, the decisions he makes and just how he looks at life.  

Next week he will start his 2nd year at Midlands Tech in pursuit of an Associates Degree in Automotive Technology.  While attending school full-time he is also working at O'Reilly's Auto Parts as a RSS (which is kinda like a Asst. Store Mgr).  This semester he will have two days that he will have to attend classes from 8 AM until 8 PM.  This means that he will basically not have one complete day off between work and school.  I have told him to only work Friday - Sunday but he will not agree to it.  He refuses to rely on me to help with his gas and his playtime expenses.  How many 19 year olds would pass up their parents money and suggestion of working less hours?  Not many that I know of. 

I look forward to the times when he gets home at a decent time, comes into my room and lies on the bed just to see how my day was.  There is not a day that goes by that we don't talk at least 2-3 times a day.  It maybe just a brief hey or it can be a long conversation about the events of our day. 

In today's society not many people can say that they always tell the truth, but Justin can.  He is one of those rare individuals that will tell you the truth even if it means that he may get in trouble.   I do not worry about him because when he tells me where he is going to be, that is where he is going to be. 

Everyday I am so grateful that GOD choose me to be his mother.   Justin, thank you for all you do for your Mom and Rob.  We love you more than you will ever know.  Continue doing what you have been doing and I look forward to watching all of your dreams will come true.

Love you to the moon and back, buddy.