Worries....

I am a worrier.  It is just a part of me.  This is one of the area's of my life that I have struggled with most of my life.  For as long as I can remember I have worried about everything, no matter how big or small.  I have family that tell me if you can't control it, don't worry about it.  How I wish it was so simple for me.  My Dad, sister and son can handle stress and life struggles so care free.  Why didn't I inherit this trait from my Dad?  With age it has gotten somewhat better but I still struggle with this everyday.

The last year and half (especially the last 8 months) have been some of the most difficult times of my life.  The struggle of dealing with this issue/problem has impacted so much of my everyday life.   I feel that I have gradually become a different person.  Somehow I manage to go about doing what I have to because I have no choice.  Not sure how I do it but I make myself go to work, school, complete housework and whatever is required of me everyday. However, I would love to just crawl into a dark space and forget about everything. 

My husband has been so supportive during this trying time.  He is my rock & I just cannot imagine what I would do without him.  As I have said so many times, God gave me such a gift when he allowed Rob to cross my path so many years ago.  I am the lucky one in this marriage.

I don't set new year resolutions but I have been setting personal goals (see previous post).  One of my goals for this year is to try to put my worries onto God's shoulders and to let him be in control of my life.  I know this is going to be difficult but I am determined to make this work.  I am hoping that with God's help I can learn not to worry or stress so much.  Me & Rob are looking for a church that we can become a member of so that we can start living our life the way we know we are supposed to.  I know that 2011 is only going to get better and this major issue/problem will be worked out as it is supposed to because I have faith in God.

Much love,
Tea---

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.  Philippians 4:6-7